Well yeah. And currently still down with a sore throat, and my nose is running too ><

*coughcough* anyway! i've uploaded some deviations *sorry if it was spamming in any way*
and well. i feel like most of the photographs i took dont even belong here anymore D:

:emos:

SO! for the other pictures, i'll upload them on my facebook (yes i'll upload the not-so-nice pics and EVERYTHING ELSE there D

AND i'll try to be more. ACTIVE . OTL

*coughh* ok. time to take medicine soon >< *sniff*
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upcoming stuff:

+SOY BOOTH! holyomgwedidityessssswegotthebooth *bounces around with joy and then dies*
Shall make more clay stuff and homg i promise i will TRY MY BEST to get the keychains to stickkkkk
(so as not to repeat the tragedies of my missing clay keychains D
(shall try super glue. Any ideas how to keep the jumping clay dust-free?)

WANTS to try making little plush keychains too but that will have to...wait and see...

+School work *dies*
+Upload more stuff *dies yet again*
Oh. but i need to blue out some unwanted attention in my Bee photos so i'll go photoshop-blur AND THEN upload. (holyomgawdiliterallyhadtoSTALKthebeestog etthesephotosandimreallysorryifthey'renotgood)

and i'll try to find time to upload my doodles! or at least the doodle dumps
(most likely they'll be on Facebook though)
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cya around! *coughs and dies*

okay. i watch too many people. so yup. im like dying right now. trying to go through them ._. which i gave up on

so. i'll like to apologise if i stop watching you D8
and im also apologizing for. my utter lack of uploads ._.
AND. my inactivity......
AND procrastination.....

OTL||||||

so meanwhile. im trying to adapt to the new semester in school. gonna force meself to read sis's anatomy book. and like OTL i must try n draw faster D8 totally died during the 1min gestures today ><

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upcoming:
lots more inactivity.
maybe if i ACTUALLY manage something good i'll post them. but yea thats like NEVER.
clay experimentation for the booth (OTL i hope we gets it)
oh. Vocaloid fanarts. ^^ was trying to do Miku in my style.
(somehow it turned out nice but not like me but otlidkwhatsmystyleyetstillithemidstofdis coveringit)
ah. i've wanted to do MikuXKaito for the longest of time. so. i shalt need time to stare at Kaito and draw him (andlikehomgitotallyphailatguysD8)

so yes. im truly sorry if i spammed your inbox for nothing. gonna get a nice shower.
maybesomeicecreamifmumandstomachallowsme tobutsqueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eee
and ultimately. plenty of rest so that i wont die. not yet.

Please PLEASE Please help me fill this out, and paste it in your comments. 8)

it'll really help alot if you filled this in because we need to know~
oh. and if you had already filled the form over at 's journal. you can skip it
-more info below-

THE THING TO FILL OUT
1. dA Nick:

2. List your TOP 15 ANIME/MANGA/GAME/FANDOM IN ORDER. Under it, list your fav charas from it. <3
[EG.
1. Axis Powers Hetalia
Romano (north Italy), Kiku (taiwan), Russia , Arthur(UK)

2. Vocaloid
Roda Rora-, Tako Luka, Luka, Len, Miku, Kaito. oh. and i absolutely love the Dauther of Evil series *sobsob*

3. um. okay so this isnt really counted but i squeal over anything cute.
from cute kitties to teddies to ice cream (okay they be yummyful) etc

so once again peeps i apologise for my squealing during the Captain's Ball match tody cus we were making clay stuff and zomg SQUEEEEE they ares so cutes >w<


4. etc]


*3. What you would most likely buy/ would rather buy from an artist.
[Eg. Stickers, Badges, Prints, Commish, Doujin, Bookmark, Keychains..and stuff.]

4. Do freebies attract you?

5. /random question/ Do you like BL/Shonen Ai?

6. /another random question/ Would you like to buy a collab book filled with awesomeness?

-ENDOFTHINGY-

ummm okay. so the story is, a group of us are going to rent a tiny booth at Eoy09 (me,kittymins,viv,stacy,zjing, AND according to kitmins, Vickie and -ithink- zhiying too) and we're gonna sell stuffs. not too sure about zhiying (homg. probably illustrations cus she's awesomessssssss) but the rest of us would be selling stuff like keychains (made with clay) and maybe random plushies (yay zjing. lets sew~!). and i was thinking of making miniature teddies to sell at the booth too. not too sure whether i could make it though, OR whether it could turn out well but PLEASe. PLEASE do come and visit our booth cus its awesomes! i swear. and oh. SQUEALS ALERT would be on.

assssss for question 6 (it wasnt in the original form) but yea. my classmates are planning to put togther a collab book filled with our own work and well. since we are getting started by wednesday AND WE HAS AWESOMES PEOPLES. hurhurs. YOU MUST CHECK IT OUT!!!!! -when we actually find a place to put it and stuff but yeapp)



*coughcough*


soo. after allllll that~. heres updates on my ohsoboring life
+i need to find a job cus my wallet's dying. and well yea. cant possibly wait til EOY to earn income
+i need to do much more amazing stuff in hope that i can be amazing someday~ (im surrounded by awesomes people like zhiying john weiming jiawei kittyminstammyzjingvickieryanohithinkmel vandkelvareamazingtoosoisjanelandhomghom gsomanygoesonthislist)
so in short. more amazingness for my gallery
+i might be quitting Gaia. feeling sooooo guilty for oweing someone her commish for like whut over a month HOMGHOMGGGG. and i dont think i can keep up with the commishs. i cant give her truly awesome art so yea i shouldgodiealreadyforbeingsuchaprocrasti nator

so yupyup. that should be about all. i think i'ld be spending my holiday -if i'm truly unfortunately unable to get a job- spending time drawing and drawing and oh sewing teddies and making clay stuff in preparation for EOY. and sem2's portfolio.

so. can i dies now plox? okay. i cant. need. job.

since i posted.

or not. its actually only 10 days. but it felt like a long time

school had alot coming. so we rushed out crappy assignments so that we can get our final grading done during the next 3 weeks of THE big assessment-- STUDIO PROJECT

and that means: instant death

idk. alot. ALOT. has been going on for me. i mean. i made a Clay carrot keychain to replace my lost penguin. brought it to school. and i lost it yesterday

AND IT HASNT EVEN BEEN A WEEK SINCE I MADE IT

i really liked it alot. a whole. damn. lot.

so much that i cried when i couldnt find it.

so much that i miss it.

so much that my thumbdrive feels weird without that bit of loveliness hanging from it.

so much that i can still cry just thinking about it. *wipes tears*




notes to self 1001: do not make yourself cry cus it gives terrible headaches and sucks out your soul again

so yea. other than that. i realised. im less charitable. i lost trust in goodwill of man. i second-guess people sitting on the streets begging for money. i detest singporeans for being total inconsiderate jerks on the mrt (and so i apologise if you feel like you have been shot by that sentence and are one of those guys that willingly move in to the centre of the MRT carriage WITHOUT people telling you to move your ass in). i. really. still dont trust some classmates. they gossip too much. i mean. its really hurting at times. hell. im still here. i could hear you dammit. shut the hell up

so okay most of the gossiping doesnt involve me now but im really getting put off by this. i just. DONT trust them anymore.

so yea. i lost trust in humans again. i feel like a jerk for second-guessing beggars and whether they would use the money to kill themselves by smoking or take drugs, whatever. and i dont know how much to actually donate to the poor victims of taiwan. i mean. im a poor student and all. i feel compelled to help them despite this. i WANT to

but deep down i wonder: is it guilt? guilt for not believing in people? guilt for being selfish? is this jsut to satify my need to prove to myself, im..... i dont know

i dont fucking know anymore.

i hate this

i hate you sudio project

i hate you stupid girl in the mirror

i hate you stupid self that likes to kill yourself alot with pressurising questions

i hate you stupid me that ... thinks of EVERYTHING bloody deeply AND put further stress on your darn self

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i. want time to stop now.